Hope

I'll just say it. . .yesterday was a rough one.  I know you came to see a card, and if that is the case just keep scrolling down.  I've had a bit of stress on my plate, and it all just hit me yesterday like a ton of bricks.  I'm a person of routine and structure.  I don't know that I've always been that way, or if it's a thing that came about when I had my kids, but it soothes me to know the schedule.  

If you've been around here for any length of time, you know that we home school (hence the title), and we are a military family.  If you know much about the military, they tend to move often.  Sit down for a minute. . .we've lived in this one house for going on 10 years.  That's right, we've lived here for 10 YEARS.  It's the only home my kids remember, and I've come to call it home too.  The time has come. . .we are now moving in roughly 6 months.  

It's not the only source of my stress.  My son is going to be starting high school in roughly 6 months as well.  I'm overwhelmed by that thought since we have chosen a home study route for him.  When I started this venture some 7 years ago, I was certain it would only be through elementary school.  I thought, 'God couldn't possibly want me to keep this up any further than that'.  I was wrong.  I am in constant prayer with God about how to do this and how long.  Not yet has He asked me to stop.  Not only that, but my son has asked me to keep at it.  He loves this way of learning, and who am I to quell it?  He is a child that would definitely be 'lost in the sauce' if I sent him into a traditional school setting.

With all of this I pray.  I pray hard and fervently that God will have my hand the whole time.  I know He goes before me on all of it.  He knows me, and I believe that giving me so much time to absorb this move (which isn't always the case with a military move) He is preparing me slowly.  I also know that He goes before me with my son.  He loves my boy even more than I can fathom, which blows my mind since I would literally try to move heaven and earth for this child if I could.  God loves him even more than I do, so He must have his best interests at heart when He asks me to keep doing this.

I am married to an amazing man, who has been with me long enough (going on 15 years) to see when I am struggling.  Last night he came to me and asked to pray with me.  I know that we are blanketing this all with pray, which gives me so much hope.  During times like these are am reminded of Matthew 6:26 which reads: 

 Look at the birds of the air, that they do not sow, nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not worth much more than they?

It gives me hope.  I don't know the outcome, but He does.  All I really need to do is show up and trust.  He's got my back.  I think this is why I have this card to show today.  The feathers are a reminder of how much I am loved and cared for. 

This card uses one of Taylored Expressions Petite sets called Light as a Feather.  It's a beautiful set that comes with coordinating dies.

Stamps:  Light as a Feather

Ink:  SU Baja Breeze, SU Regal Rose, SU Rich Razzleberry, Craft White

Paper:  Choice White, kraft, Pebbles - Yours Truly dp

Accessories:  coordinating die, white embossing powder, baker's twine, foam tape, corner rounder

Thanks for stopping in to read my ramblings and check out my card.  Hopefully today I can craft a bit and not completely ruin a project like I did yesterday (that's a story for another day) ;)